How's life going on?

I don't wanna write much in this time. I'm so lazy. I just need to say "I need time to be alone within my self. I don't need anyone to sit and stand beside me and say "I'm here for you". It's useless. Being free from this all madness is all I need."
I know I shouldn't say like this but I really want to say that I'm so dislike my brother. He's so provocator and he likes to talk the same things in many times. When he tried to talk to me, I were ignoring him and even being mad on him. Yeah, he's fucking one. But from that all, he's still my brother.

Decreasing My Playing Time

My eyes are so pity to having the owner like me. Previously, my right eye is min 0,5 and the left is min 0,75 but now, the right one is min 1,5 and the left one is min 2. I'm so sad for knowing that. I know I'm the only one should be wronged on in this situation. I didn't keep my body that God has created well. I broke it. Then I promise to keep my body and my self more than before.

PS : My mood for today is so not good. Some of my friends whose sit around me at class went to a university to join a seminar and they left me alone. Hha listened so pity, didn't? But I don't care at all. Then when I was on my way to get home, I met 2 friends and I came to them but it looked that I weren't welcoming. Hate it! When they need my help (in English subject), they'll show their fresh or pity face and beg me to help them but when they don't need me, they even assume I'm not around them. What a human!

My Parent's Interrogatory

Oke, makin hari orang tua gw makin gencar nanyain jurusan yg akan gw pilih di univ nanti. And as you know, my answer is not changing, communication. Gw tau gw emang pemalu and seldom asking but I love this thing. Not so much but I have big interested in that one. And lagi2 bokap gw kayak mematahkan harapan gw utk kuliah di jurusan ini. Yg katanya entar susah dapet kerja lah, mesti berani lah, and many more I don't wanna hear. Dia selalu blg "mending akuntansi, dibutuhkan di semua perusahaan". Well, I've said to him that I don't want to continue my study for accounting. Dulu aja gw masuk di SMK jurusan akun jg gara2 disuruh bokap gw and yea, I'm in it now. Dan karena gw suka nonton drama korea, bokap gw jd nyuruh gw ngambil jurusan bahasa korea di UGM. Ya lumayanlah itu walopun sebenernya gw biasa aja.
And now, I'm dilemma. I'm always being asked by my parents where I'm going to go and I just keep silent 1000 languages. Lemme hear you choice, God :'(

My Passion

Truly, I don't know either about my passion. I've thought many things about what I like and I don't like. I like writing but I don't like journalism as much. I like art, like design graphics or design communication visual but I think I'm not as creative as many people to create something new. Hha. I like mix and match costume on someone's body and glad to see people's reaction about my work but I don't too heart in designing costume a.k.a fashion designer. But do you know what? I'm studying accounting now. I took that major in Vocational High School. Something I'd never expected. I even swore in the past that I wouldn't ever take this sh*t thing, but God has his own plan for me. And nowadays, my parents take me to continue my school in the same major. Oh Jesus! I really dislike this subject! I always get bad score in my exams (not all exams). If I got the good one, I were sure that I copied my friend's. Hha. I'm always getting confused if I think about MY PASSION.
Ps: I'd be so grateful if I can work in a magazine companny. It must be fuuuuun!

Starting New Life

Hellooo guyssss, long time no see and it's 2011 already. First of all, Happy New Year all, wish in this new year we can be a better person than before. Ameeen :)
I was too busy a.k.a not at home from 28 December 2010 - 01 January 2011. I had retret from my school since 28-30 Dec then the next day, I went to Puncak w/ my big family from dad until 1st January. What a tired day, but I'm lovin it! Yeay :) and also I want to say "Get better soon, my lovely sweety Ruth Keiko Abigail Simanjuntak. You're so pity and you're still a little one. I wish the best for you. I want your smile back!"
We'll be back to school on 4th January. Hmmp, still lazy but have to keep spirit on. Passing the National Exam successfully and accepted at my favorite National University. Ameeeen for that!
I think it's enough. It's morning already. Oh ya, I think one of my "close" friends have changed since that activity. I love it but I'm kinda weird of that.