I'm lack of

I'm lack of staying focus on what I'm really keen in. I don't know why it has to be so hard. There are many things that make me forget on what I really have to fight for. And it's so suck ya.
Like now, I'm so interested in BIG BANG. Dunno since when. But I think their songs are really easy-listening. And what more make me so frustrated that I'm also interested in the MEMBERS. Seungri and G Dragon. Oh shit yeah :( And know what?! My dad's birthday is as same as HIM. And this afternoon, I even dreamed him. What a WRAP one!
What I wish now, is just I can forget about the those IDOLS whom (might) I'll never meet but someday I wish I can meet them too -___-" (what a heck one). Music is absolutely needed in my life so don't tell me about "don't sing and listen to their songs!"
But yea, as you may know, I'm a type of person who gets bored easily. Let's see, how long I'll remember these persons and maybe the songs! Haha

Less than 3 weeks, I'll be leaving this town. So saaaad :"(

Do you know what ...

Do you know why someone/something can be so popular? Because everyone just blow it up. Seriously, if there's no one start the topic of someone/something then what/who the hell are they?! I'm not jealous to those who are so popular. I'm just wondering..
As you know, I'm taking Korean Language major at university. Exactly, got accepted. (Late) congrats to me, please :D and for spending my short time in Tangerang, my dad (and me) decided taking me to Korean course. Private. It can be called "bekal biar ga oon2 amat pas kuliah ntar" and my teacher is a Javanese who has been married with Korean guy and having 2 children now. She lives in Lippo Karawaci. I study with her twice a week and you know what, next week, I'll have a test! Sumpa gw belom siap sama sekali!! Gw kaga ngarti apa2! Kaga apal satupun!! When she gave me homework and I did it right, it's because, I saw the note that she gave to me! I really don't know how to do theen. Aigooo :(
And nowadays I always feel "Did I get on the wrong way?? Should I choose another way?" For info [not to brag my self], I'd also been accepted at STP Bandung aka Enhaii jurusan Manajemen Konveksi. Jadi entar kerjanya kayak EO2 gitu deh. My dad said that it's not me. He said I'm not someone who quickly mover, I'm not someone who would be able to receive many calls as what EO does. I just wanna prove that I can do it! Don't look down at me! But then, what will people say if I leave UGM just for STP? Many people want to be accepted at UGM and when I do, I just leave it? CRAZY! Also, I'm interested in Korean Language major. Although I don't know how big my interest in that one .__. 
Oh men, Korean Language is so hard yeah! Gua bingung yg tadinya objek jadi deket ke subjek dan predikat jadi di akhir kalimat. Belom lagi hangul nya itu.. Bacanya ribeeet. Walaahh. I just feel that I won't be able to learn it well. I don't call my self as a stupid but yeaah, I'm not clever enough to make it out well. God, plesae help me. Make me stronger and tougher than before. I know I can because there's YOU who made me able to stand up until this point.