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29 Desember 2011

Damnieeey

Damn for this shitty pain. I think I'll have my period time. I really don't like it. So freaking MUCH. That gives me so much pain that sometimes I can't hold.
Ok, so there are 2 days left before the end of 2011. What a fast one. Didn't realize that time's walking so fast. And we'll face 2012. People usually have some kind of resolution. But not for me. I'm not one of those persons. I just wanna live my life whatever it takes. I have dreams of course. But it's still unsure. Yeaa
Ok, now I feel so suck ya. Don't know why. It's rainy here. Just like my feeling. So blue. I think, one of my friend's so annoyed with me. I just made her waiting and fucking in her eyes pain. Sorry. I didn't mean it. I just regretted some of my mistakes. I just should back home soon. I just should hold my hungryness. After thinking about it again, well, my stomach isn't that hungry. Stupid me. Now, I feel guilty to her. How to react with her tomorrow? Facing her or talking with her? Well, just stay cool, rin. Just like you normally do
Ok, then my mood isn't so good now. My dad called me and I kinda like fee annoyed so He just turn it off. Sorry dad, didn't mean it. Really. I just wanna being home so soon yea. Feeling so lonely here. Damn, I think I don't wanna back to Jogja again. Stuck in Tangerang, pleaaasee.

22 Desember 2011

This is it

It's not about Farah Quinn or the recipe of making some foods. It's about me
Gw lagi mikir. Bukan galau ye. Cuma bingung aja. Bingung, kenapa gw suka mikirin hal2 yg aneh atau random gt. Bukan hal2 porno gt ya. Note it
Gw mikir, eksistensi gw di kelas itu kira2 penting ga yaaa. Apa kalo gw ga ada, semuanya bakal sama aja? Ato ada yg berbeda? Ya pasti ada lah, misalnya jumlah muridnya gitu. Oon deh lo rin -__-"
Gw mikir, keberadaan gw itu nyusahin orang2 di sekitar gw ga sih? Kayaknya nyusahin yaa. Minta ditemenin ke sini, minta dianterin ke situ. Ga bisa berdiri sendiri. Well, actually I can. But yeaaa, you know laaah
Entah kenapa kadang gw mikir (lagi) kalo ada beberapa temen gw yg kesel ama gw. Ya iyalah. Gw jg kadang kesel ama temen2 gw kok. But then, like Tumblr says, I was born to this world not to please anyone yeaa. I like that quote! Gw bangeeet gitu looooh hehe :)
Kadang, sikap kecil yg secara ga sengaja ditunjukkan seseorang itu malah bisa buat gw sensitif lo. Ga tau deh kalo mereka itu nyadar apa engga utk membuat gw mikir melulu. Ga ngerti maksud kata2 gw di atas ya? Ya udah ga usah ngerti deh~ Gw malah lebih suka orang yg kalo ga suka ya tunjukkin aja ga suka! Ga usah bermuka dua gitu. Jgn cuman ngasi sinyal ga suka doang. Adanya jd pikiran gw terus. Trus entar gw stress lageeeh. Haha.
Ah udah ah makin ngaco gw nih ngomongnyaa. Jal Jayooo. Niteeee ^,^

Happy Mother's Day

Today is 22th of December. So, congratulation for all moms in Indonesia and every part of the world. Such a blessing to being a mom. Someday, I'll be kinda like you too :)
Then, this morning I sent a message to my mom which is sounded like this
"Ma, selamat hari Ibu nasional. Tetap menjadi Ibu yg hebat ya. Maaf kalo selama ini nyusahin. Kangeen mama. God bless"
Then, 10 minutes later, my mom replied
"Makasih ya say, mama tunggu dr td kok ga ada ya ucapan dr Arin gt,mama selalu doain kamu, jaga kesehatanmu ya. I love you too, eh salah gak bahasa ingg mama"
Well, what else can I do after reading that one. My tears were falling down. Not too much. But my heart's fluttering. I really wanna meet my mom. So freaking muuuuuch. Can I just go escape from this place. Can I hug my mom for a while.
Mom, thank you for being here for me. Thank you for the love you've given to me. I know, I can't return your love as much as you gave to me. But, I promise you one thing. I'll make you proud of me. Whatever the way. I will show you and dad also, that your workings aren't useless. Just wait until that day yaaa :)
Ok, off to the previous topic, I just bought something that made me so frustrating. Bought a Christmas edition's headband. And wanna know the price? Actually, at first I thought the price was only Rp 25.000 but when I go to the cashier, jeeeng jeeeng, Rp 42.000. Meeeen, mahal bangeeet yee. Hahaha. Ya udahlah gw anggap amal di hari raya aja ya

17 Desember 2011

An unexpected victory

Wanna tell a story about the event in my university. Exaclty, in my faculty
Jd, setiap tahunnya itu, fakultas gw ngadain event tahunan. Eventnya itu ga cuma sehari. Acaranya jg banyak, ada seminar, pertunjukan musik, teater dan lain sebagainya. Seminarnya jg ngundang orang yg ga main2 loh, kayak Deddy Mizwar, Taufik Ismail, dan Sudiwo Tejo. Gw ngeliat yg Taufik Ismail doang, soalnya yg 2 lainnya gw ada kuliah.
Ok, di acara ini jd setiap jurusan tuh mesti nampilin pertunjukan gt dlm waktu maks.15 menit. Dan yg nampilin harus maba alias mahasiswa baru. Sebenernya tuh kita dikasi waktu buat latihan gt udah lama banget tp kelas gw bingung mau nampilin apa. Ganti2 terus temanya. Tiap kalinya ngumpul buat latihan eh ga taunya besoknya dah ganti lg temanya. Sumpa, kita tuh depresi berat apalagi ngeliat jurusan lain udah pd latian terus kyknya niat banget gt nampilnya. Jadinya, ide pun baru bener2 pasti pas hari Rabu minggu lalu sedangkan kita tampil hari Kamis minggu ini. So, kita pun bener2 latihan hari itu. Malah gw mesti nari pula. Wkakak. Ga kebayang deh gw beneran jadinya kyk apaan tuh entar.
Jurusan gw nampilin kyk pertunjukan masak di suatu Kerajaan yg lg pesta panen raya. Ada raja plus dayang2, terus ada samulnorinya jg, ada Hansam-chum nya, dan ada tambahan penari2 lain. Kita sih pasraha aja ya mau menang apa engga, yg jelas udah tampil. Biar ga disuruh bayar jg ceritanya. Dan pas hari Senin kemarin, kita dikasih tau kalo jadwal penampilan kita tuh dipercepat jd hari Rabu. Well everyone's panic that day. Apalagi kita belum dapet kostum buat tampilnya gt. Anak2 D3 yg ditugaskan untuk ngurusin hal2 kyk gitu. Apalagi yg namaya minjem Hanbok itu, susah loh. Izin minjemnya maksudnya
Dan alam pun berpihak pada kita. Hanbok dan lain2 udah dapat teratasi di hari H. Oh ya, sebelumnya gw mau ngasi tau, setiap kita mau latihan gt, kita kan latihan di Plasa lt.2 ya, terus kita tuh selalu bagi 2 gitu ama jurusan lain yaitu Sastra Arab. Trus, mereka tuh serius banget deh latiannya. Niat banget! Anak2 Sastra Inggris jg, rajin bener latiannya. Kalo Sastra Jepang, kita ga pernah liat mereka latihan. Tp kyknya menurut kita, penampilan mereka tuh bakalan keren bgt.
Detik2 sebelum kita tampil pun berlalu dgn sangat hectic ya. Mesti dandan sana-sini. Malah agak menor2 gitu lg. Katanya kalo di panggung dan lighting tuh ga bakal terlalu keliatan gt. Tetep aja menurut gw, aneh. Ohya, selain buat kimbab (bohongan), kita jg bagi2 kimbab2 gratis ke penonton gt. Well, everyone's happy. For those who got the kimbab, of course. Secara basic gw bkn penari, jadilah tarian gw tuh aneh. Gw cmn bisa nyengir doang pas tampil :D
And the next day, jurusan2 yg belum tampil kyk Parwi, SasJep, Antro, SasIndo, dan Sastra Perancis gitu tampil. Gw ama beberapa temen gw iseng2 ngeliat gt. Menurut gw Parwi keren jg, kalo Jepang entah kenapa walopun bagus tapi gw ga tertarik. Kalo Perancis, agak krg menarik gt ya. Malah, mereka ada tari2an yg make lagu Korea gt. Well, you're out of context, guys~ Gw ga liat acaranya ampe akhir ya. Gila aja ampe jam 12 gitu katanya. Dan pas tengah malem, gw dapet sms kalo jurusan gw tuh menang juara 3. Wow, it's really unexpected yea. Seeing how good the other departments. Kata seonbae gw, kita tuh menang di konsep gt. Katanya konsep kita bagus trus penampilannya jg rapi. Well, harus gw akuin, konsep jurusan gw emg beda gt ama jurusan lain. Hihi. Seneng bgt deh akhirnya kerja keras kita ga sia2. Thank God :)