I feel better alone

so its almost a month ive been in korea
some people asked me about living in korea.and i just answered simply "for now it's okay".cause i dont know what's more to answer :/
you know living in other country that you still feel strange around isnt easy, right?
ive enjoyed some things that ive never done before.
ive seen some new people from other countries too
and ive also been missing so much things in my life
i miss my parents my family and my friends
i also miss how life used to be.i miss the memories :"(

the friend that id been telling in the previous one, sometimes shes just nice and the other thing,shes just really annoying.like this afternoon.is it wrong that some korean person told that i have some unique expressions and you were laughing at it like kind of satire one.do you really think know who am i for really?you know sometimes its just too hard to talk simple to you because you didnt response w/ a really nice one and im kind of tired for it.and sometimes i just want to tape your mouth tightly so you wont comment anything about me because yes, you dont know who i am for real.and if i tell my mom bout this one, i think she will just tell me to more patient or endure it and have a good relationship w/ her.ya im doing it for now.and if she tells to tell straight to her,it will be awkward for me too,because some kind of personality that i have.haha~

and this morning i suddenly cried on my bed.i think i just had a bad dream about my mom, like having a fight with my mom then when i wake up, i think about the package that hasnt been arrived rightly.i really want to hold that package right now :( i think if i hold it now, i will feel some of my moms hand :(

i dont know if living in korea turns me into the crybaby like this.i think i have too much crying days than before.actually i really want to go home in the summer but i know that my family finance isnt really great and also because i want to have some trips to some places.hehe.

i think i just have too many thoughts in my mind that should be turned to the thought of studying rite.oya, and i have a roommate too.a korean typical girl.i think i feel better alone.really its more comfortable.haha~

Shut your mouth lah, bro!

Sudah 3 minggu lebih kita saling mengenal dan bersama
Untuk mengurangi rasa rindu gue akan pemakaian bahasa Indonesia, gue bersyukur punya kenalan dan teman kayak elo
Kita juga pergi dan pulang kuliah sama2 terus. Terus kalo kemana2 jg hampir sama2 terus
Tapi kenapa elo banyak bacot dan keluhan bgt tentang gue sih. Kayak yg gue lakuin dan gue katakan itu ga ada yg bener menurut lo. Gue gini salah. Gue gitu salah. Gue ga ngomong jg salah. Fuck banget men~ Gue aja ga segitunya ke elo. Bahkan gue ga pernah ngeluhin ini itu tentang sifat lo walaupun ada be2rapa sifat lo yg masih krg berkesan bgt buat gue. Gue gatau gimana hidup lo dulu dgn sifat elo yg kebanyakan mengeluh tentang segala sesuatunya yg padahal cmn masalah kecil. Pity you, girl
Kadang tuh gue pengen bgt ngomong gini depan muka lo, "Urusin aja lah mulut dan tindakan elo sendiri. Ga usah kebanyakan ngeluh tentang gue. Kayak lo dah bener aja. Dan kayak kita udah saling kenal lama gitu? Gue ga suka dikomentarin ama orang yg baru gue kenal". You don't know me so well, bro?

Everything

It looks like some of my friends are success enjoying their new temporary life in Korea. Well congrats for you, guys.
But it also seems that the other friends are still not enjoying this new experience so much. Just like me. Cheers for us.
Gue bukan orang yg bisa menikmati segala sesuatu yang baru dengan rasa nikmat yang berlebihan. Gue mesti liat ke depan dulu dan mengalami satu dua moment baru mungkin gue bisa menikmatinya.
Karena gue bukan orang yg kalo seneng, bakalan seneng banget. Sedih, ga bakal terpuruk2 amat. Itu definisi gue tentang diri gue.
Gue, sekali lagi mencoba untuk menikmati. Mencoba untuk belajar hal-hal baru. Yang nantinya akan gue jadikan ilmu dan pelajaran di ke depannya nanti. There's a quote said that "Enjoy and cherish every moment in your life." Even it is just in one second.. Ya, trying ;)
I am a lit bit tired now. I dont know why. I know that Im havig homesick-ness. I really need hugs from my mom dad bro and friends.

Im trying

Sebenernya banyak banget yg pengen gue utarain disini. Cuman gue bingung mesti darimana
Gue tahu mestinya gue bersyukur bisa dapet program beasiswa di Korea. Bisa ngerasain langsung kehidupan di Korea kayak gimana. Bisa denger secara langsung percakapan sehari-hari orang Korea. Bisa nambah pengetahuan dan juga pengalaman baru yg ga bakal gue dapet di Indo sana. Tapi gue ragu apakah gue bisa menikmati kehidupan gue di Korea sampai tahun depan. Ya begitu banyak keraguan yg gue alami sekarang. Dan gue gatau apakah gue bisa menghandlenya.
Bahasa Korea gue dibilang bagus juga engga. Gue susah untuk menjawab dengan baik dan benar waktu orang Korea nanya sesuatu ke gue. Ditambah lagi vocab gue yg terbatas banget. Apa yg gue bayangkan utk diomongkan dan yg gue omongkan itu beda banget. Dan gue bingung, gimana gue bisa membenarkan sesuatu yg salah tersebut.
So, inti dari tulisan di atas ini sebenarnya, gue hanya ingin mengutarakan keraguan gua.
Gue bersyukur gue bisa berada disini. Beneran. Ini merupakan pengalaman yg ga akan pernah gue lupain. Gue mungkin ga merasa nyaman atau senang disini. Tapi gue sekarang lg belajar. Gue juga lagi nambah pengalaman. Ya setidaknya gue mencoba. Gue ga akan patah semangat gitu kok.